ho,ho,ho, merry christmas!

Tonight we had our annual christmas party except this year we went overboard with food.Words can't really explain how much food there was so a picture will suffice. After everyone was done eating, we could of probably still fed all the homeless people that lived under the bridges in houston. The food pictured here was not complete. There was also a big pan of menudo, 4 fully stuffed chili relleno milk fish, and another pan of chilean sea bass. Man, just thinking about it overwhelms me!!!

Karaoke was another hit at this annual xmas party. i opted out right away and hid in the sunroom on the couch while i watched my sister sing and perform a mini concert for the next 2 hours. hahahah.


One thing i enjoy about our xmas get together are the babies that arrive at our house. They are the source of my amusement. This year thaddeus was my entertainment. I love one year olds because they speak jibberish and dont ask you complicated question like why is the grass green? ( this was the number one question i use to be asked when i use to babysit---and it really is a complicated answer!!) .

Tonight I had an interesting convo with Thad:

Me: Thad! Do u want to pet Lucy?
Thad: (inquiring voice) ja jog je jaddy?
Me: ok! Lucy!! (Lucy walks towards thad)
Thad:(flailing his arms) AAAA-----EEEEEEEEE!!!! (starts running away)
Me: (picks thad up) what's wrong,you dont like dogs?
Thad: EEEEEE---jonnoooooonoo---noooo
Me: What's that on ur shirt thad?
Thad: (looks at shirt) JoG!!!
Me: Awe, u have a dog on ur shirt but yet you dont like dogs?
Thad: (looks at me like...what the hell lady, why are u asking me questions you know i cant answer? shiiitt...) haha i love babies.

This is the third christmas without my mom being here and now its just the three-- well the four of us now. Things are definitely different but every year i slowly start getting use to it. I only had one minor breakdown at HEB but that's a major improvement from last year. :)



We got some pretty interesting presents. The most interesting present was a necklace with a cross on it. If u held it up to the light and looked through the center piece of the cross, u could read the lord's prayer. There were specific rules to this gift however, and the rule was as follows:
- even though it was a necklace it was not to be worn as a necklace on your bare plain neck but to be used to serve as a bible trinket or basically jewelry for your bare plain bible. Oh the joys of being SDA i tell u!!

Along with the interesting gifts, i received some green gifts that totaled $450 dollars!! I guess i wasnt on the naughty list this year! :)

As i wrote on my earlier post, tomorrow were spending xmas with the gf and her kids so we'll see how that goes!!


Merry Christmas!!!!

the notebook

The notebook is a classic romance written by Nicholas Sparks. This book was made into a movie a couple years after the book was written and one of my favorite actresses ( Rachel Mcadams) plays the main character. Every time i watch this movie it makes me realize the deep impact that our first true loves have on us. The main character alli, carelessly cheats on her fiance when she sees noah (her first love) for the first time in seven years. She realizes that she's herself when she's with noah and is someone totally different when she is with her fiance.

Being in an on and off relationship throughout college, I realized that once you fall completely, hopelessly, and deeply in love with one guy you can never give that kind of love ever again to another. It's like your heart reserves one single spot for that guy and once that spot is taken, it can never be replaced. When i think about ever loving someone as much as i love my "first love", i find it an impossible task to do. But who knows, i could be wrong about this theory of first loves..but through my experiences and other people's experiences, i find this to be true.

The notebook is such a sweet movie but at the same time, really unrealistic. It's funny because when i watch crazy romantic movies like this, i secretly think that this kind of love exists out there somewhere :)

home for the holidays

After being away from home (Texas) for 8 months, i was nervous to come back after such a long time. I expected things to be stressful as they always are because my dad bombards my sister and i with a million errands and a lot of unnecessary stress. My expectations were definitely correct. Since ive been here, christmas break has seemed more like a stressful holiday than it is a holiday full of "christmas spirit". The only kindness i experienced today was from the guy who rings the bell for the salvation army. He kindly opened the door at macy's for my sister and i since we were carrying four huge boxes to be gift wrapped ( a task that was assigned by our dad to do of course.)

Anyways, the point is, coming home isnt somewhere i relax. It is a place where i am tense and stressed. I have to admit however, it doesnt always feel like this 24/7. There are times where i can escape to my cave ( it's what my dad use to call it when i was in highschool) and lay on my bed and relax (as i am doing right now), and there are good days where there is no stress at all--but this is rare. I know im not the only one who experiences this. Life is never perfect.

Lastly, coming home for the holidays reminds me constantly of how my amazing mom isnt here. I miss her dearly and christmas is not the same without her. This picture was the last christmas i ever spent with my mom. As you can tell, my eyes are all watery from crying. I already knew that this would be my mom's last. This is probably the most saddening part of my trip back home. This year, we are spending christmas day with my dad's girlfriend and her daughters. Can you say awkward?? ( i can)

this post is really weirding me out. i cant believe my first post is this depressing! maybe tomorrow will be a better day... we will see.